Presence

You said, “I am with you.”

Did you mean you are here with me?

Did you mean you are inside me?

Around me? What did you mean?

 

You presence meant so much to me

It meant more than I knew

Until you were gone

But not gone…with me… but how?

 

My tears of aloneness fall

My own selfish desire

To have that companion 

that I’ll never have again

 

Your presence meant so much to me

And yet you say you’re with me. 

How? How are you with me? How?

How? How am I with you?  How?

 

Selfish, inward, ego-driven fear

Of being alone and without…

Without you…without you

Without your presence

 

Your presence meant so much to me

I look for you…everywhere… everywhere but…

You’re not here … yet you say…

You are here. You’re here, with me.

 

Are we together on some astral plane?

Am I dreaming a dream of being alone?

Are we walking alone together on a beach?

A beach on Enceladus, Saturn’s moon?

 

Your presence meant so much to me

Am I really we? Am I really you? 

Holding hands and walking

humming a tune together

 

Where are you? Where are we?

Are we everywhere? Everything?

Am I living the illusion of 

Being myself? …myself alone?

 

Your presence means so much to me

waves splashing, splashing

we walk away from the splash

We embrace…a hug I will never forget

Your presence!